The Slave God

One of my favorite arguments that I’m always amused by is this left-hand, right-hand path argument. In today’s episode, there’s quite a lot of things that I’d like us to explore, but they’re going to tie in quite beautifully around the idea of our personal development and the nature of the slave god and our battle with it. Fundamentally, the big difference in the view sits in that right-hand paths are traditional religious viewpoints, and the left-hand path is anything that violates that. You’ll even see the nature in the way the Catholic approach is done for the cross versus the Kabbalistic approach for the cross—each starting or pointing at a different shoulder when this is done.

One of the fundamental premises of this is because, in one theology, man is unworthy of God and looks unto God, seeing himself as this laser, the sinner. As such, the Tree of Life itself is even reversed—I’m speaking here specifically of the Kabbalistic Tree of Life and its symbolisms. Yet, in the magical traditions and pantheons, we see the exact opposite. The Magi takes the Tree of Life within themselves and essentially tries to unlock the divine within themselves.

Based upon this understanding, this basically means most of what we would call—what lots of people would argue in the magical and spiritual traditions as right-hand path being light-based traditions and left-hand path being dark-based traditions—is completely incorrect by this fundamental premise because even light traditions try to unlock their divinity. So, news for you: you’re all a bunch of heretics based upon the original context. Even those that so high and mighty put out their posts about stopping those in the left-hand path, which are usually magicians that work a Hermetic system or another light-based system, are in themselves actually practicing a form of the left-hand path because they are trying to unlock the divine within, and they see fundamentally that the potential of God is within. The purpose of even that system of initiation is to unlock that potential and to awaken to its full realization or the attainment of godhead.

The big fundamental catch, though, or the big misconception, actually comes from a completely different area and has nothing to do with these original or modern-day ideas. A classic book to read in the area of sex magic is Demons of the Flesh, and the author shares these viewpoints as well. If we look at the roots of what is the original left-hand path, when we take this back to the old Tantric Nashida-based traditions, the original paths in this, where we find very much the root of modern-day yoga and practices like that, in and of itself was simply because the woman was the one always on the left-hand side. Hence, left-hand path, in that sense, actually really just meant any tradition that venerated the woman. That’s it.

So, news for you: if you’re a feminist, you’re basically a left-hand practitioner. And this is why this veneer of it has also been cloaked onto the path of witchcraft and magic and so many other areas because magic in itself is a feminine art. And this is not necessarily meaning it is necessarily a woman in that sense. It’s feminine in the sense of it is internal. The subconscious mind is considered feminine, so by that same token, again, if you practice any affirmations or any work on the subconscious mind, guess what? You’re doing the same thing. So, most of these arguments of left-hand or right-hand path or good versus evil come from a primitive mind.

Let me explain it this way: the old notion is that the soul is always seeking salvation. It’s always seeking heaven; it’s trying to escape hell. Now remember, the Greek word for soul is psyche. So, your psyche, and if we look at the principles of modern-day Neuro-Linguistic Programming, if we look at behavioral sciences, we will find very easily that the soul or psyche is consistently caught in a struggle of duality—a struggle in which it perceives some things that it associates or moves towards, as we say in NLP, and something it’ll move away from. Or another term that was used for this in more primitive days is it’ll want to go into heaven, aka a state of pleasure or bliss, or it’ll want to avoid a state of pain or hell. Essentially, that’s really what it boils down to. This is not some end-of-the-world thing; this is the basis of human behavior or science.

The reason we make all the choices we do, the reasons you choose a tradition or a culture that you do and you don’t choose another one, is because you link more pleasure to the one and more pain to the other. The reason you don’t do certain things is because you associate more pain to that thing and more pleasure to not doing the thing, and this is literally what controls your behavior. That’s why these are principles that depend on our—that determine our map or our experience of reality at such a fundamental level that their actualization has become mythic in its proportions.

Campbell, the author of Hero with a Thousand Faces and one of the greatest scholars of our time, said that all religions are true in that the symbolism is true. In other words, the meaning is that if we look at these stories in a symbolic system, we try to understand their deeper meaning instead of immediately attributing these supernatural qualities to it. That’s when we actually start tapping into its mystery, and we can get away from this bias because that’s what there is—there is this bias about “my religion, my path, my tradition, your tradition.” We see this even in the mystical traditions. “I’m a Wiccan, I’m a witch, I’m a Satanist, I am a Christian, Luciferian,” whatever the attribute or title that you are holding up is also the victim of the same principle, you see.

This is where we come to understand, actually, for the first time who the slave god is. Now, it is very common for this argument, in this place, is that where this, let’s just say where this originates from, a lot of its common translations for today come out of the classic Diabolical. The Diabolical was a channeled book, a very small, short book about 20-something pages, describing the battle in heaven and the fall of the fallen angels. Inside of this, Lucifer becomes awakened. In other words, he becomes aware of his free will and the capacity of free will, and it’s inside of that that the battle ensues when an angel that was the closest to this principle of God, Messiah, basically doesn’t want mankind to have free will, and basically, the battle starts, charges Michael to cast Lucifer out. And there’s a whole thing about why there won’t be a battle again in the search outside of the influence of what is really the demiurge.

Now, in essence, this is where the context kind of comes into because the story and the Gnostic point of view of the Garden of Eden is very, very different and offers us a different vantage point, a different lens through which we should look at these ideas. This is one where the serpent sneaks or swears—Lucifer swears to come back into the garden to save man, to free man. There’s this ideology that man is a slave, man is unaware, unconscious of his potential, of the seed of God, of the godhead, of the divinity, of the infinite potential, of this free will that exists within him and her. And that is what then leads to the consuming of the Tree of Knowledge, which brings about awareness. But unfortunately, out of awareness, we also get the first duality: shame and bliss. It’s this first initial play that then brings forth the other dualities, the other forms of pleasure and pain.

This thing creates the fall out of Eden. This fall, we see in Kabbalistic structure as the Tree of Life with Da’at in the center or at the top of the tree, which then is the hidden sephiroth. This hidden sephirah falls down and becomes Malkuth, Malkuth being the word for kingdom or translates as kingdom. Your Malkuth is your current personal reality, okay? So, you can think of it in simpler terms: if you take this mythical thinking and you bring it down to practical life, the moment you were born, you were born in the kingdom of God, quote-unquote. You were born in a state that was non-dual. And as you then started to progress in life, you started to differentiate. You started to separate little bits and pieces. You started to identify, “This is pain, this is pleasure,” and not only did you do that in the world that you were going into, but you did that within yourself because your sexuality, your serpent, started sneaking into the garden, you know, in order to liberate you because the serpent is also the sexual part.

And you were saying, “Oh no, no, don’t touch there, don’t do that, that’s wrong, that’s bad,” and you started having shame. So, you started holding up the flower, quote-unquote, and you couldn’t face your god self, your fundamental flow of nature. And God here needs to be recognized. It’s not necessarily the fundamental concept of the slave god, but it is the fundamental principle of all things. The word God was essentially never used in the original text. We get God from the German hert that has its roots more in the Nordic and the Germanic traditions, and a word still used is god, got. This god, this power, which is the fundamental principle of—you know, it can be equated very much to the Taoist idea of the Dao, which is the way, this fundamental essence in energy, also then gets differentiated as we step further and further away from it, as we fall out of the state of fundamental unity into more and more layers of duality.

The way to understand this is that we are becoming more and more unconscious, more separated, and this is a principle in hypnotism. In hypnotism, if I want to put you into a hypnotic trance, one of the things I may do—there are many things I can do—but one of the things I may do is I may stop speaking to your hand as if it is your hand. I won’t say, “Give me your hand.” I will say, “Give me that hand,” and then I will say things like, “That hand does this,” or I would use another term, “Your unconscious does this, does that.” What I’m, in fact, doing is I am creating a deeper level of cognitive dissonance inside of your brain. I’m creating another layer of separation from you and another part of you.

Now, our shame was the first degree of separation. This doesn’t mean you were perfect, and here’s where the doctrines of manipulation come in. The doctrines of manipulation will tell you things like, “Oh, you must be again like a child.” That text is a little bit incomplete there. You see, when you were a child, you were not perfect. You were just not tainted. That’s it. You were raw potential. That’s all. You had the infinite potential of the divine within you. You were not divine in and of itself. You were as unaware as birds, you know, little birds. And this is the nature of the Garden of Eden. When they fall, they are all unconscious. They are asleep in that sense. They are not aware. They are not making conscious decisions, much the same way as birds in flight do not make conscious decisions when they need to migrate, and animals, when it’s time to breed. These are almost decisions being made for them at a group or a biological level. There are biological processes, there are fundamental processes of the planet that are at play here, which are outside of their conscious range.

And this is where we find the key. The slave god, or what was referred to as Yahweh, is the one in which we are a slave to. In fact, we see his behavior pattern in the Old Testament as being very vengeful, very moody, very opinionated, very much like an arrogant human being that feels more empowered or more privileged than they actually are. Why does it need worship? Why does it need all these various venerations and things like that? The fact of the matter is that it already has the worship, and allow me to explain that through the principle of the elements.

When the Hebrew language is kind of defined, there’s the idea of the supernals, the mothers, and the double letters. It’s broken down into three supernals, which is the Aleph, the Mem, and the Shin, which can be seen as the elemental and alchemical principles, which also attribute to fire, water, and air. Then, we get out of that the seven, which attributes again to the seven planets, and we get the twelve, which then attributes to the twelve signs of the zodiac, and we can go into endless correspondence and links to other twelve signs, again linked to the twelve apostles and all of this kind of stuff here.

Now, Jesus is another character, and we’ll get to that character in a minute to see how this all relates. But only at the bottom of the tree, only in the final one, do we find Malkuth, which is the outermost layer. It’s the furthest degree of separation, and that’s where we find ourselves. So, as we’ve done this for, we are there now in earth, alright? Even though all the elements are present, we’re in earth; we’re in the physical matter of things. This is also considered to be, in some theologies or some cosmologies, the gate of the Kliphothic world. Others would position it going through Da’at. Both are true, depending on the cosmology you subscribe to, but we’ll chat about that.

It is here that we come to understand that most people, and if you’ve done any degree of therapy or work on yourself, you’ll be aware that you are not aware. In fact, so much of our behavior only is going to come to the front when it’s oftentimes too late, like the oracle says to Neo: “You’ve already made the choice, Neo. You’re here to understand why you made the choice.” A lot of our therapy, especially when we grow and we start looking more into our inner souls and what’s going on inside of us, we start to recognize there are these unconscious factors that were at play—unconscious beliefs and paradigms and models of reality, unconscious ideas.

Now, when we look at this from a magical context, even if we take the moon—the moon itself, which is the symbol of the subconscious mind, which is the symbol of Yesod in the Tree of Life, which is the first sphere outside of Malkuth, outside of our conscious current awareness or current reality—is then the subconscious mind. It is also corresponding to our own sexuality. So, in other words, that sexual serpent that came in in our first place, and then through judgments and associations, we linked, tainted, we disassociated, we made it, we pushed it even more unconscious, this natural resource of our creativity, we pushed more unconscious.

In fact, we see its nature as evolution. In evolution, because every major act of influence or evolution in our society has always been preceded by a change in our arts and in our sexuality. The arts, again, can be related to Venus or Netzach, which we also then find in the Tree of Life, another factor that seems to be unconscious. Another one is the driving mercurial aspect, the arrogance that almost brings about the brilliance and the genius. These are all form factors inside, or which we are more unconscious of. So, this language of the spirits becomes in a language of the archetypical nature of the self, the blueprint that we are operating on from an unconscious level.

The purpose or the practice of magic then is to awaken God. In other words, to make known the unknown, to become conscious of that deepest most part, and not only to become conscious or reconnect with that part but to fully mature it and to give it a healthy expression. You see, the fall is necessary. The fall wasn’t the curse. It says, “And now man has become like us.” In other words, that’s the moment we become gods. That’s the moment we awaken to the potential of our free will. That’s when that journey actually begins—the moment the serpent comes into the garden and we eat of the forbidden fruit. But now, we associate shame with it, and we keep repressing and keep repressing, and these keep creating unconscious factors that manipulate us—in other words, that enslave us.

How many things are you enslaved to, really? We look at the world today; people are so seduced by what they see outside. They think, “If I get that pretty house, that new car—all qualities of sight—then I am going to be happy. Then I’m going to have what I want.” They listen to what other people say—all qualities of sound—and they listen to other people for affirmations, and they trust in that, and they use this to make judgments and assessments. We’re easily seduced by beautiful-sounding words and ideas and concepts. We are easily seduced by our senses. The senses are, again, a manifestation of that same Yahweh principle.

Now, in essence, what that principle breaks down to, if we take away the arguments of deity projection onto it and old entities that review themselves under this, if we forget about all that and we simply break it down to its core principle, this idea is the Tetragrammaton. The Tetragrammaton, which translates as the holy four-letter name of God, is Yod-Heh-Vav-Heh, and these four letters describe very much those three supernals, those aspects of the elements, and the fourth, which is earth.

Now, we see a difference between that and Yeshua when he comes in in the translation because Yeshua is oftentimes described as the pentagrammaton, or the holy five-lettered name of God. In other words, it has the same four letters, but it has a fifth one now included into it. And that fifth letter included into it here is the letter Shin. Shin then basically translates as the purifying fire. This means each and every one of us has all four of those elements in our nature. You and I are the slave god initially; we are conditioned by that. In other words, we are in service to the slave god. We are not even aware that we are being controlled by these unconscious processes.

Now, those unconscious processes manifest through our psyche or through our senses, yes. And that’s why even texts like the Bhagavad Gita demonstrate the idea of man being driven by his or her senses—how we’re seduced by the external, the material, because we’re meaning-making machines. We’re trying to project that meaning, which really is from us—our own beauty, our own soul—inside of the world. And that’s just the process. That’s how we start to engage with the experience—also part of the key to our magic, as well as the key to our slavery.

Now, inside of this journey of beautiful transmutation, what the adept or the initiate does is the initiate raises their consciousness out of Malkuth systematically into other spheres, and not only becoming aware of them but purifying them and then maturing them, going through an alchemical process with each of these components to recognize that what I’m projecting out of the world, what I’m actually a slave to unconsciously, I now need to control. Whether I’m a slave to thinking my partner is the best thing in the world, or my company, or this—when I have that car, I’m going to be happy—all these external projections and unconscious games that we play.

Do you know why you get angry? Do you understand what your value systems are? Do you know why you do all the things you do, or how much of them are unconscious? This goes even further. There’s a principle known as attachment theory. And attachment theory, and I’m not going to go into too much detail with that, but attachment theory helps us understand why we get jealous and why we love the way we do. You get, for example, an anxious attachment approach, which is somebody that’s constantly pushing, they’re constantly trying to get attention—they almost come across as needy. This is in and of itself a corrupt, shall we say, air element. It’s overthinking or it’s over-analytical, or sorry, an over—let me correct myself there—an overactive water element. So, it is a water element that’s gone into its negative, it’s corrupt. In other words, I’m completely controlled by that thing. I’m not even aware of myself doing it. I feel like I have no control over it; I just do. It’s a compulsion; it comes up unconsciously. This is my slavery to that dimension of the slave god.

Now, in the same context, I can have the opposite, the opposite strategy, which is an avoidant one. An avoidant one is where I’m almost not involved at all; I don’t want to get anything inside of that. It’s the person that, you know, the second things get intimate, the second they get close, they pull away, they push away, they’re not there. They’re not able to experience the full depth of love, especially if we understand that all the traditions always say to us God is love. This fundamental Tao is love. It is because it’s the ultimate unity within all duality, which is what the fundamental translation of these names kind of comes down to.

It is our deep rapport with each other that also empowers our magic. How can you influence anything that you are not connected to? This is why magic works in the first place. Now, it’s inside of this that we see these manifesting in our therapy, in our design, in our sciences today. When we look at the way or the way people struggle with relationships, the combination of these two, which is a corrupt air or a disorganized attachment style, that’s somebody that has both. They’ve locked themselves out of the one and out of the other. They’re avoidant, and they’re anxious. They’re a little bit, they’re overcomplicated, they’re pushing too much, they’re demanding too much, and then they pull away—they still don’t want to commit at the same time. That’s a disorganized style.

So, now you see what happens when the air gets corrupted, when the water gets corrupted, and when the fire gets corrupted. These elements need to be purified inside of ourselves. In other words, we need to understand these unconscious processes that we are running—where they’re coming from, what their roots are in our lives, what’s our deeper kind of issues. It’s not just a matter of a simple ritual or a simple spell. Liberating yourself from the slave god means liberating yourself from slavery to these dimensions of the god body because they’re all components of the matrix. They’re not good or bad by any sense of the word; they’re just principles. They’re fundamental fabrics of the nature of their.

Now, we can put masks on them, and many traditions have, the same way an effective hypnotist or an effective influencer can take a fundamental principle of your psyche and then say, “Oh, that’s your unconscious doing that,” or, “That is this doing that.” Then, what happens is your brain starts to associate the two. This is where the manipulation comes in through religions and traditions and things like that. You know, if it serves you, great. But if it doesn’t serve you, let it go and walk away from that and start designing your own universe because that’s what the journey is about.

You see, as we begin to purify or liberate ourselves from the slave god, we also become the god above god—the awakening above that. The same way even Yeshua does, Christ comes in and purifies the four elements and unites them inside of love, and love again here means unity. This is the journey each and every one of us has to go through in our progression. This kind of expands under the notion that, again, the old phrase that says, “Jesus was not a Christian, Buddha was not a Buddhist.” These were men who unlocked access to that component, that divine fundamental self that each and every one of us possesses. Jesus said, “They will come, those who do as I do, and greater things shall they do.” And it’s inside of that that we recognize that the propaganda, the slavery, came after. They came after when other people started programming their philosophies and their ideals inside of it.

Jewish people, many Jewish people, still believe that Jesus carried the plight of the Shema for us on his body, which gave him the abilities that he did. This is the extended formula, but understand that the extended formula, the minimized or compressed version of this, is still the Tetragrammaton, still the four-lettered name. So, when we liberate ourselves from its slavery and we start to unlock its power and potential, we become its master, the same way pain and pleasure control you versus you becoming aware of pain and pleasure and consciously deciding what is going to mean pain to you and what is going to mean pleasure to you, and then becoming conscious or matured spiritually inside of that mastery.

That thing is the overcoming of the duality. This impulse that is inside of us at the very base—that is the rebellious spirit that some would refer to as Lucifer—is the one that falls, the one that rebels. It’s a part of our nature, regardless of what your path is. It’s inside of you. And the catch is, people that just try and repress that component, not integrate it, they are the ones that end up having the biggest shadows to cast. The greater the light, the greater the shadow. That’s why we see so many of these people that are great lightworkers, so supposed to be, and they’re really deeply freaking damaged, you know. They’re causing more hurt than good. And that’s why you oftentimes see people that are supposedly evil, bad, whatever, left-hand path practitioners being the most compassionate, kindest people in the world.

Here’s why: you see, a lot of people look at the path of those traditions and they go, “Oh, they work with demons, they work with that.” You can think of the dark path as advanced shadow work at a universal level. That’s really what it is. In the philosophy of the Kabbalistic theology, the light of God first tries to manifest, but the sephira couldn’t handle it, and it shattered and created the Klippah, the fallen Tree of Life. Then, only was the Tree of Life produced. So, it’s out of the darkness that the other tree kind of exists, but it also recognizes the philosophy that inside of each of those klippah is the nitzutz, which is the foundational light essentially necessary to clear up the way.

Hence, why Crowley, Kenneth Grant, and many others talk about the journey as one walking up the Tree of Life all the way into Binah, and then from Binah being swallowed in through the Da’at, through the abyss, to do the real dark work—the real hectic work, you know, in the shadows—to unlock. And then those quote-unquote demons were actually daemons, they were guides, they were deeper fundamental archetypes or components of the universe that we would then have to operate or work with or ascend to and mature into, the same way we had to become conscious and attune into the ones in the light in the first part, and then into the ones in the dark. And only through that can we mature our way up to the top and then out into, and then finally into, Keter.

This is where the big choice would be. The big choice would be, do I fundamentally dissolve into the universe and become one with God? That’s the phrase, “When you see God, you are no more,” because your entire personality portion of the brain is just eradicated. It’s no longer fun; you’re functioning at a cerebral level versus, do I simply stay in Chokmah, stay just in front of Keter, and then utilize my power? Now that I am free of duality, now that I myself am Abraxas, you know, or I am the mastery over Abraxas, which is the principle over—or what’s called the god above god—the principle over all duality, over all light, over all darkness, not subject to either of it.

So, the truth is, in the esoteric philosophy, is that you are not man, but you are a man initially, and you’re taking man and evolving it. This is the philosophy of Adam Kadmon, Adam Kadmon, which is the perfected man—the man who has awakened all these portions of the tree in order to liberate him or herself. But the catch is the bias, the duality that comes into this, which is still a victimization of duality. Practitioners that stand on one side of the tree and they’re just going, “No, I’m not going to go into the other side because that’s bad

and that’s evil—you’re just not completing the journey. Others, who are also on the opposite side of the tree, just judge. This child-like argument between the traditions and the path creates dissonance inside the psyche or takes the dissonance that is there, that is manifesting in these things, and increases its intensity even more, creating a sense of separation inside the practitioner. This is what really makes people come up with the rubbish idea that the path is lonely. The path is not lonely.

If you’re on a path as a magician creating reality, and you’re suffering from extreme loneliness or extreme unhappiness, that’s not because of the path. That’s because of the slavery that you are still a victim of. It doesn’t matter if you’re left-hand or right-hand or whatever you call yourself—if you’re not resolving these issues within, if you’re not becoming conscious of these unconscious processes, you are a victim of the slave god.

Now, I say that I killed the slave god, and sometimes I have—you know, like Osiris, he resurrects. Sometimes I have moments where I have to re-face him. But we go through this journey over and over and over again in life, and the best way to the journey of ultimate love is through the death by love. Whether you’re falling in love with a person, a business, or an idea, and that thing gets taken away from you sooner or later, like Lucifer, you will fall. It’s in the fall where you have a choice.

The choice is—this is where you really learn to cultivate free will—you can believe in the doctrine and the narrative of reality that you first had, or you can become aware of the unconscious forces behind beliefs, paradigms, ideas, planetary influences, all of these that were controlling you and kept you in that place, which you now have evidence was not what you were meant for. Or, you can rebel against heaven. By heaven, I mean your original idea of pleasure and purpose. This has nothing to do with some Armageddon inside the world.

I’ve seen the same thing happen with so many practitioners of innocent magic. Innocent magic, to a certain degree, brings about the Armageddon of the personal individual. It’s your own Armageddon that happens—the world goes on just fine. Nothing happens there. It’s your personal transmutation, but it can be so intensely real because, for you, it is. And because it is real for you, magically, you are affecting your world in that way. You will literally be vibrationally pulled out of other people’s lives that aren’t in matching vibrations, and you’ll be tuned into vibrations specifically suited to it.

This, however, is where the left-hand path or the dark path, in that sense, the dark clipper, teaches us such valuable lessons. It teaches us how to go through the transmutation, through the pain, through the loneliness, how to find the meaning and the power inside of a shattered reality, hell, and pain. But it’s difficult, and why a lot of people suffer is because they haven’t even gotten aware of the things on the light side of the tree that are controlling them. How are you dealing with it at that level? This is sometimes the danger and why I believe a lot of people struggle—they come up with these extreme fantasy versions because they cannot still differentiate from what’s going on inside of their unconscious.

Now, a sad thing that some people might say is, “Oh, so this is all just psychology, you know, it’s all just unconscious processes, my brain, my childhood, my future projections, and myself.” To a degree, yes, it is. Your inner child is your past self; your higher self is your future self. Your presence is where you want to bring all of these into alignment—that’s the trinity and that’s the alignment or rapport within yourself. Out of that, you establish rapport with the universe. But it is more than that.

Once you’re in this space and you begin to truly believe in yourself—and you believe in yourself because you have healed yourself—the reason you don’t love yourself, the reason you don’t believe in yourself, is because you still have these separations within yourself. You don’t even know yourself. You’re looking for it in relationships, you’re looking for it in success, in businesses, in money, and stuff like that. The truth is, you just need to survive financially. You need shelter, food—you know, there’s very little that we actually need as human beings. But people feel like they’re going to die if they don’t have the new iPhone, if they’re seen in a certain way. So they filter themselves through someone else’s point of view.

I heard a beautiful saying in an episode of American Gods, Season Three. I forget the goddess’s name. When she walks out and Shadow Moon is asking her, “You know, what changed?” She said—now I’m paraphrasing a bit—“For so long, I was seeing myself through other people’s eyes that I started believing that’s who I was.” The change for her was that she started seeing herself through her own eyes—who she needs to be, her own beauty, her own sacredness.

How many of you are looking for someone else to see you? We understand from all these influenced technologies, winning conversations, and crap like that. It was like, you know, make people feel understood, make them feel heard. That doesn’t show us an influence technique. It shows us how broken human beings are. It shows us how deeply separated and disconnected people are, and they shatter their relationships and every single aspect of their life chasing a ghost—because that’s what it is. You’re thinking you’re going to find the one; you’re thinking you’re going to get that perfect thing. It’s going to come, that perfect lasting thing is going to come. You are the perfect one. You are the perfect life. You are the beauty that you seek, but you’ve become unconscious to it. You are a slave to the slave god, and unless you take the actual steps and processes to become aware of the slave god as it operates inside of you—what is the elemental makeup, what is the quality of your attachment wounds—then only can you achieve the final attachment wound, the final attachment style, which is secure attachment. That is when we can securely attach and bond with people, and if they leave, they leave. We’re not lost. We’re not broken.

This is closer to a state of zen than years of meditation is ever going to bring you. This is the recognition of the liberation that we need to go through in order to unlock our own divinity, to realize Psalm 82: “Satan, ye are all gods, and you are the children of the most high.” But recognize now here that when we speak of the concept of god—I don’t care if you use god, the universe, the dragon, or any of those terms—the term you use does not matter to spirit. It is a symbolic language by which you neurologically associate and fire off vibrations and intent inside of your nervous system, in your energy matrix, and that is what is heard.

That’s why some people can do practices that work like that, and others take years doing the same work and it doesn’t do anything. It’s because the internal representation, the internal narrative, is different. In one’s narrative, the world is gods and monsters. In the other’s narrative, they are the gods and monsters, and they have endless potential within them to manifest this great vision inside their heart.

Now, that’s a bunch of information. I hope you’ve had some fun with it, and it’s opened your mind to some other possibilities. If there’s something that you’d like me to go into in more detail, please give a comment beneath this video, or make sure you’ve liked and subscribed and given us some support. Or, just drop us an email at hello@thecvltofyou.com, and I’d be happy to answer that and kind of go into a little bit more detail. Stick around for a few seconds, and at the end of this video, I’m going to answer a question from one of our friends.

Hey, sinners! Okay, so our question today comes from Gary. Gary asks, “When it comes to transmutation of the vital energies internally, how would you best describe the milestones one exhibits on successful transmutation of vital energy into essence?”

Now, good question. In fact, such a good question, my friend Gary, that we could spend an entire mini-seminar discussing that properly. I take it you bring that question from an educated space—you’ve done some work and research in terms of that. Now, we have to qualify the question, at least to a degree, for the sake of this conversation. And please, if I’m getting the context wrong, do just send me an update and let’s kind of refine that.

But when we talk about the vital energies of the body, we’re specifically, oftentimes, referring to the sexual base energy of the body. Now, this is vital force energy. Let me be very specific here: sexual energy does not necessarily indicate arousal. Arousal is a manifestation of sexual energy, but in an esoteric context, when we refer to sexual energy, we refer to the dual energy as a whole. In other words, it can be your active light, it can be your active darkness, it can be your masculine, your feminine, it can be your ups and downs—it can be any of the dual shifts in the body, of which sexual energy is the most concentrated. This is why it has oftentimes been very much associated, also, alongside its position to that of the base chakra.

Now, a very interesting philosophy is on the journey of Yeshua in the biblical context. He starts his journey off in Bethlehem, “Beth Alahim,” which can be translated roughly as “house of bread,” what an appropriate name for the base chakra, and ends in Golgotha, which is a place inside the skull with a perfect name for the crown chakra. The journey of Yeshua is actually the journey of the dual energy—of the sexual energy now being purified and brought up through each of the chakras, the seven heavens, the seven kingdoms, into achieving enlightenment. And it’s just before the last one there—there is the death. When I see God, I am no more. In other words, we spoke earlier in the session about the addiction to the slave god. Well, the way that I liberated myself from the slave god is I died. I literally died—with enough pain, enough transmutation, all my old attachments and addictions to those principles, I was liberated from. I broke free from them through death, through eventually linking so much pain to it and breaking from that narrative, and then starting to see myself as the actual source behind that, recognizing that principle within me and then, as such, becoming the source of it, no longer feeling a dependency or a need for it outside of myself. And that’s when the energy relationship of it shifted, and I became in charge of that vibration.

Now, that’s macrocosmic. So, in other words, as we start to transmute this energy correctly inside of ourselves, the transformation happens and happens at multiple layers inside of it. It’s the energetic level, the psychological level, and the behavioral level, at the very least, and then ultimately at a quantum level, if you will. So, there’s still that four-fold nature of our being that we have to have these manifestations of each of the tiers. So, that’s the important thing to recognize or to remember. When we begin any journey or philosophy inside of the magical journey, we go through the elemental philosophy. In other words, the first thing we get is air. Air is the imagination of the visualization of the thing. It is also the intellectual gaining of data of the thing. It’s the mental exercise around it, if you will.

The next stage is the actual action component, which is the fire component. In other words, when the air then affects the fire, the fire gets stimulated. In other words, I’m now doing the exercise, I’m doing the breathing, in the transmutation. It is then from there on that I activate actually water. The water comes in response to the fire. We often see this in the mythologies of the fire and the ice being the first two principles, the core principles of the duality. So, this is again that duality starting to resolve itself. That thing comes up in my being as the water. In other words, now I start getting the emotional vibration for it. First, it’s a push—I’ve got to push for that feeling, but it’s a feeling. Once I get that feeling going and I’ve taken the action and I’m aligned with the data and the information, now suddenly my body starts to respond. And the moment the body starts to respond, that’s when it’s earth. In other words, now you’ve completed the alchemical chain or the elemental chain under the guidance of spirit. In other words, under the guidance of purpose, you have a clear why. And that’s when it works.

One of the things that oftentimes makes a lot of people struggle with their practice is because they don’t even know why they’re doing it or what the end result should be. And because they don’t do that, there’s a degree of disassociation. It’s the same as in a hypnotic sense or in a film context. If I’m influencing somebody into a certain direction or a certain purpose, and I don’t give them an idea of what that frame is, if I don’t paint a picture of what an archetype looks like—for example, Anubis—you know, and I talk about the qualities of Anubis, and while I’m doing it, I’m making you picture gold, I’m making you picture this, I’m making you picture these things, then it wouldn’t mean anything if I suddenly showed you that image. But if I’ve pre-framed you, if there’s been some immersion into the philosophy or into the tradition or into these ideas, now just simple hints of it are enough for the subconscious mind to cling onto the thing and go, “Oh, that’s the meaning.”

That’s why, you know, the utilization of sigils and the utilization of a lot of these things eventually sometimes don’t have any value for people until they’ve actually done their research around them. There’s been that cognitive association to the purpose, and from that we can generate the experience by which we then produce reality. So, one of the things about the sexual energy transmutation—again, there are many ways to apply this process or alchemical process by which we transmute base energy or essential vital force into Shem or spiritual energy.

The Daoist philosophy gives us a nice one, especially the teachings of Master Mantak Chia. Now, if you find Mantak Chia’s body of work a bit dense to get through, Eric Yudelove, who was a student of Mantak Chia, has also written a couple of books: “Taoist Yoga and Sexual Energy,” as well as “Taoist Yoga and the Tree of Life,” which is a nice correspondence to help you bring that eastern kind of idea along with western Hermetic magic into a bit of an alignment.

But what happens as we begin this process is we begin to generate sexual energy inside of the body, and we begin to breathe this energy up. Because this is oftentimes really the missing key for a lot of practitioners—a lot of practitioners are just breathing. They go to a typical yoga class and they’re just inhaling up the energy. And this is good—this is a key—but it’s not the main key. The main key is still the transmutation of sexual energy—that’s really the fundamental of it.

So, as I then inhale, I transmute this energy and it starts to go up my spinal column. I may experience a bit of a burning sensation, but not like an energy, like a bodybuilding sensation—more like an energetic burning sensation, like a burning clean. And as it actually enters this base channel, that’s actually what happens. The sexual energy itself is still in duality. Hence the old phrase that, you know, attraction is based upon opposites and love is based upon rapport. And this is it. So that attraction, that duality, that sexual energy current, those essential, the vital force of the body, is now being transmuted. So, there’s a stage of this purification. If you do any type of high ceremonial work and you’re bringing an energy from the top down at the same time, that’ll add to it and it’ll also help purify if that energy is stuck getting loose. Because a lot of people get stuck in that stage—they struggle to transmute the energy. In fact, if you’re doing any of these practices and you still find yourself intensely in want or need or arousal, that energy is not transmuted. Once the transmutation begins, that energy transforms, and it becomes this sense of life, this sense of vitality, even a sense of joy, or a sense of power, or a sense of energy. But it is a pure, cleaner energy that is non-dual. In fact, a very similar phenomenon happens when we start to understand psychic readings inside of the eye or psychic impressions versus emotional or ego projections. Emotional ego projections usually have a duality type emotion linked to it, whereas intuitive emotions or intuitive insights have a pure sense of knowing. There is no immediate emotional positive or negative association attributed. We only tend to get that once it makes its way into the neocortex and it kind of gets filtered through our processes.

Now, once that energy starts to move up, there are a couple of things that can start to occur for the practitioner here. Now, in the beginning, in the early stages, remember we spoke about that air, fire, water, earth kind of tears. That also then relates to the Kabbalistic worlds of the Atziluth, which is again like you can consider the collective unconscious, the personal unconscious, the subconscious, and then finally the conscious. These tears are all the same thing we’re working on. So when we’re first doing that visualization, we’re basically operating at those top-tier levels, and by continued practice, it comes down to the physical levels, meaning it becomes more physically intense. We get to feel it more real, we’re more involved in the process and the experience.

Now, when this begins to happen—again, it won’t necessarily happen in your first session, you may just experience warmth, heat, things like that rising up. But once it actually transmutes and that energy starts to go up the spine, something interesting starts to happen inside of the brain. Now, self is plugging in for the cult. If you want the full details of what really happens in the brain—the biochemistry—we do go into detail of that in the cult of you. But for now, just understand that this change of energy actually creates a change in protein release inside of the body. This also creates an alteration in your state of consciousness, which creates a dissolving of the identity that we’re very familiar with. That old phrase, “When you see God, you are no more”—this is literally happening. You’re disassociating from the neocortex, associating to the cerebellum, and as such, that shift starts to happen inside of you.

Now, as that shift starts to happen—this is an experience that Timothy Leary talks about in some of his work when he relates the spiritual journey or the journey in psilocybin mushrooms that someone goes through to the journey of the Tibetan Book of the Dead—and it speaks a lot about the transition from the lower Bardo, and the lower Bardo is the place of struggles and the place of fear, isn’t it? The ego death, the same thing happens when people take mushrooms because there’s an ego death. And this ego death kind of occurs because the brain, based upon its associative processes, associates you even to time and space, so your body to a certain location. Now, there’s a center in your brain responsible for this, and that gets switched off, which is what happens inside of this site. People tend to experience fear, they tend to experience anxiety, and this is a possibility that does occur at times when we activate from this. The time-space veil drops. This is the eye of Shiva, so to speak, that opens up and destroys everything—destroys time, destroys space, and then it destroys yourself. And as it destroys all the stuff self is made out of, or the false self, the ego personality itself—as it destroys that, that’s when we step outside of time and outside of space.

Now, that experience, depending on the level of energy and depending on the level of practice you’re engaged in—for example, this is more common with advanced sex magic practices and high magic practices than it is in traditional basic dance yogic practices or traditional energy Qigong and Kung Fu. But when that transition goes, there may be an actual shift—kind of like those times when you feel like you’re waking up in a dream and you’re falling and you’re being kind of shocked back into your body. That kind of abrupt change is a possibility—a shifting, a vertigo, a shifting of positions, feeling like you’re large or feeling like you’re small, all of a sudden jumping or being upside down. This is all common attributions that specialists, mediums also find when they cross the quote-unquote veil. And it’s because of this kind of reversal—we see this in Kabbalistic terms if we look at the Tree of Life and the supernals, the top three versus the lower. They’re kind of reversed. We have a masculine amount, a feminine being, but then the spheres beneath it, beneath the masculine, become feminine. The ones beneath the feminine become masculine in their qualities and attributes. This is the reversal that’s kind of a thing that can happen. It’s different for everybody, depends on your experience and your psychology.

As that then begins, your magical magnetism starts to increase. This magnetism has an impact upon the quality of your voice. The quality of your voice, your tonality, your sound may not completely change, but your tonality and the resonance and the energy with it actually changes. And this is because of the magnetism that now gets fused in with your workings. This is the basis behind the secrets of the Druidic storytellers, the enchanters, and all those kinds of practices.

Now, as we progress inside of this—remember, this is purely the magical component or the energetic component. So, you may experience that for short intervals, maybe a process or a low magic thing where it happens for a little bit and then it kind of goes away. But as you do this, you kind of set in motion a chain reaction. Because remember, what happens in the unconscious is now going to cascade down. As it starts to cascade down, any kind of repressed stuff that is in there in the system—bad beliefs, negative things that keep you from your fundamental source, your dragon, your god, your universe, your Abraxas, whatever it is, your Shiva, Mithras, your Goetia—that’s going to come through. Whatever that map is and whatever those mixed, tainted parts are, it’s going to amplify it to the point where it can manifest in this actual reality. Your duty, your job is to ensure that you maintain discernment. You maintain discernment in the sense that when this comes up, you get to recognize, “Is this experience I want?” Because again, you’ve got free will, you’re cultivating your free will. Or, “Is it something that I’m going to let go of now?” And then applying the principle of Kali, in a sense, destroying again this principle of Shiva as well, destroying that old, undesired reality and reintegrating that part of you that’s been lost to come forth.

Now, this continued progression then brings about wholeness psychically. One of the phenomena that we find in spiritualist mediumship in the old days is that somebody doing mirror gazing—you know, some people call it silver mirror, some people call it white mirror, but normally you sit and gaze, and the old classic use of the two candles, stare at the thing. The faces that you see coming through are corresponding to your psychic conditions. They are spiritual beings in that sense or correspondence like that, but they’re also psychological components and they’re matched. That’s why the old golden adage, “I’m the exorcist in the midst of the exorcism,” as you purify these components, eventually when you look in the mirror or someone looks at you in that same ocular style vision, you just start to glow. That glow starts to happen. And this is the sign of an integral person, a person that is integrated into the various components. When they are at that state, they’ve resolved their attachment issues, they’re in a state of secure attachment, they’ve matured their elemental components, they’re a healthy sovereign, they’re a healthy warrior, they’re a healthy magician, lover, and they’re operating in these other quadrants of their life.

So again, this is not just a magical practice thing. This is something that reflects in your actual world. You’ve overcome the “slave god,” you’ve defeated the “slave god,” and you’ve now gained power over that same—you know, as Siegfried that slits the throat of the dragon and drinks the dragon’s blood. You’ve now liberated yourself from these various parts of the mechanism and purified those components of yourself alchemically to come out the other side.

So as a result, your kind of growth is fully established, or it’s continually expanding. Because again, there’s a mindset that a lot of people have with this, which is, “I’m going to master the technique and I’m going to be done.” You’re never going to be done. The Tree of Life is a good symbolism where it says, “The Malkuth of the current tree or the teacher of the current tree is the Malkuth of the next tree,” and it’s an infinite journey. You see, as you continue to expand your model of reality, you’re starting to take in more of your divinity, you’re believing that, moving that force, that infinite force to flow through your system, your energetic system, you’re going through this alchemical channel. What ends up happening is you can now handle more and more levels of that energy, greater and greater expanses of consciousness, and they are specific to your unique purpose and destiny. That’s why it’s never going to really match. One of the things that you’ve seen—in fact, if you are trying to match what you’ve seen by someone else, like a Jesus, a Buddha, a Genghis Khan, or Richard Branson, that’s not you being on the path. That’s you replicating someone else—that’s still you being a slave to one of those programs. And what will happen in the next days is your intuition will open up at a higher level because you’ll have more energy coming up. A natural phenomenon that just occurs—increased sudden flashes of light and sudden flashes of energy at a spontaneous level. This is because there’s more energy now available in the system, which then feeds and nourishes the other centers. In the Daoist tradition, we look at the three treasures. The three treasures will populate the lower dantian, which will bubble up to the mid-dantian and the upper dantian. This thing empowers the chakra system or the energetic system, and that energetic system, once empowered, can then operate at a better level.

This is part of the reason why lots of our manifestations struggle—besides internal resistance, there’s just not enough energy to feed those things and truly magnetize them. I hope that answers your question and gives you some food for thought.